May, 2004:
reminders of leading-achieving
It was in high school that I discovered that being a leader-achiever
held only minimal meaning for me.
Until then I devoured whatever opportunities presented themselves
to "serve". That meant that much of my time in junior
high school was devoted to student council and various other service
organizations. And these, in order to acknowledge our devotion to
the cause, issued us (after we paid for them) sweaters and pins
and various other paraphernalia that allowed us to stand out.
There's admitted something strange about finding a number of these
so many years, and what seems to me such a different outlook on life,
later. And yes, there are more than only two.
Today I view these items with a large dosage of detachment, as a sign
of a misdirected youthful energy. Strangely, however (because they
were in a plastic bag that I hardly knew existed?), they seem to be
the only remnants of my junior high and high school years that I've
saved at all. I left my yearbooks behind when I left the States, never
expecting to take an interest in them again. But of course that was
before the internet. Today, when a name shows up on Classmates.com
that I think just maybe I remember, I can't turn to those yearbooks
to match a face to the name. And to tell the truth, I'm a bit sorry
I can't.
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