Another week. You didn't change much during this week, but your mother sure got fatter. It turns out that during the last two weeks she's put on three kilograms - and that's no mean feat. Your mother's additional weight probably means that you've been getting bigger as well - and as you continue to grow you continue to be active. Actually, it may be that you're not really more active than you've been in the past, but since you've become so much bigger even a little activity on your part seems like an army is marching through your mother's stomach - or at least that's one of the ways she describes it.

If you stay on schedule we've still got a few weeks before your arrival and I've got to admit that even though I've had lots of time to prepare for you, I'm far from sure that I'm ready. It would be nice to clean our apartment so that you'll come home to a clean home, but somehow I always succeed in putting that off. And there are all sorts of other preparations which it would make sense to get around to which always seem to get put at the bottom of my "to do" list.

Being busy is one reason for this lack of preparation, but I've got to let you in on a little secret - the major reason is that I still haven't convinced myself that you're really about to arrive. Having you around is going to make some major changes in our lives and I'm really not sure that I've internalized that yet. Don't get me wrong - we'll do what we have to in order to make your home a proper place for you to grow in, but it still seems so far off.

And one more secret - I'm scared. I'm not really that young and in general I know how to deal with all sorts of different situations, so maybe there really isn't any reason to think that I won't quickly learn how to adjust to you. But still, your arrival will be such a major change in my life that I don't even know how to start thinking about it.

Throughout your mother's pregnancy I've been telling you about the changes and the developments that have been taking place by you and your mother. Now it seems as though I'm the one who's going to be doing the most changing.